In the past I have betrayed myself to “keep the peace.” This choice isn't benign. When I betray myself, a brick lodges inside my body, either as physical pain, anxiety, resentment, or general irritability. I grab the forecasted cloud of conflict and swallow it whole. What does it mean to find community? To belong? My body answers with a soft sigh of understanding … [Read more...] about True Belonging Inside of the Storm
Blue Diamond
I have faith that our combined internal compasses will lead us to the next blue diamond as a family. I understand and accept that we will travel over mountain passes and through storms. I also know along the way we will find spectacular sunrises and sunsets and maybe even a few perfect turns in knee deep powder. I will remember that day always. We (my husband, son, and … [Read more...] about Blue Diamond
Turning My Face to the Light
From the outside, I was committed to helping him grow his academic success and resiliency, one spelling test at a time. On the inside, my stomach was in knots, and the friction of my inner wisdom was screaming at me, "THIS IS WRONG!" I woke up today feeling hopeful and confident. Yesterday was full of negative thought patterns and downward spirals. Yesterday was not a day … [Read more...] about Turning My Face to the Light